i know what i did was wrong.
i know. yet i cant stop myself.
i dont wish to be a substitute.
i dont wanna be that girl.

i wish school would hurry start
so i can stop doing things to harm myself
and start focusing on my studies.
i want my first class honours more than
anything else in this world.
maybe till then i can prove to world
that im more than just a pretty face.
more than just a flower vase.


/ stop hating myself.